Friday, 9 December 2011

the voices

I am scared. The voices are coming back. I buried my head in my pillow last night as I shook vigorously telling the voices to "LEAVE ME ALONE," "I WILL BEAT YOU THIS TIME." There was a group of multiple children chanting at me. "We are going to kill you," they would say.

Everytime this happens I feel like there is something I am supposed to remember.  I just don't know.

2 comments:

  1. What do you mean everytime this happen there is something you're suppose to remember? What when you hear voices or multiple voices? I'm confused....explain:)

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  2. I get it in my head (unrealistically, because there is NOTHING I am supposed to remember as far as I can tell) that something REALLY bad happened to me when I was little that I just cant remember and that's why I hear the voices. But its not. nothing bad happened to me. But this is like back when I went to the psyc ward and thought I was born into a satanic cult because I remember rituals and everything and I didn't even know anything about satanic cults...follow? I hear different kind of voices. Some times its just random and sounds like no voice I recognize and then last night it was like a bunch of kids shouting at me. this hasnt happened since may when i went full blown crazy

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